I’m not going to lie – being a professional blogger is hard work. Bloody hard work. I’m approaching my two year “blogiversary” and I’ve probably had less than 5 proper days off in that entire time. So I might be a little overworked but bare with me here. I may only have had a few days off in that time but at least that means that I have had work to do, but it still hasn’t given me the confidence in myself and my blog that often others think I must or should have.
The blogging community is very close-knit especially if you break it down in niches like Parenting, Food and Fashion where you end up finding lots of groups, particularly on Facebook or Twitter where great friendships are made and support is offered (You should read my Personal Ad: Blogger Finds Tribe about how I started Tribal Chat!) However, being such a close community has it’s downsides as well. There is almost a sort of unwritten rule really that in these private social groups we are able to share information about campaigns we’re working on, or might be getting or brands that have emailed us so that that way if anyone else is working on the campaign too we can discuss and share it.
Of course this does also lead to the appearance of the green-eyed monster and I’m surely not going to be the only blogger to admit to this. Yes you are happy your blogging buddy got that new campaign and wow you’re so pleased that those 5 bloggers, just like you only them, got picked for an all expenses paid trip round the world for them and their whole family but that still doesn’t alter the fact that flashing through the back of your mind is…. what about me?
I’ve been so fortunate that for the past year, I haven’t really had to chase any work – it has all found me. By that I mean that I have cultivated relationships with brands and PRs so much so that I haven’t needed to go looking for work because it has come directly to me, my inbox with me also filling out the odd Facebook request every once in a while. However, at the moment things are quiet and it seems like they are just quiet for me. I know that that’s not true but that’s how it feels. There is a constant gushing of bloggers talking about what they’re currently working on and all I can say is “Wow – Congrats” (because in some groups we’re not allowed to write “wow wish it was me” because apparently that detracts from the glory the original poster of said amazing news will be feeling!”
After nearly two years, 600+ blog posts, thousands of comments, views, followers, I still wonder if I’m good enough?! I still wonder that if this whole time I have been working as a blogger has been one massive fluke and I’ll soon be seen for the fake I am and have to go ad rejoin the “real world.” I like my world right now. I like where I am. I love what I do. Yes, if I’m honest I could do with a few more days off but so could everyone couldn’t they? But what if that’s it? What if my career as a blogger is drawing to an end? Apart from anything else, I’ve just bought my domain for the next two years so that would be a little bit annoying!