Being told that the only reason I have my blog is because I love the access it allows me to copious amounts of sympathy, that in actual fact this blog is rather boring and what is the actual point of it other than to feed my own ego?! This really made me stop and think.
I did a lot of thinking about myself as a person and then about my blog. Was I really just looking for sympathy? No. Is that how it comes across though? I sat down and trawled through over 400 hundred posts that I have written in the past year to see and I was left feeling unsure momentarily. Yes, I have bared everything from my soul down to my toes and all that’s in between, but I never set out looking for sympathy. I never asked for sympathy it was just given freely. A lot has happened to me these past couple of years and now rather than bottling them all up and feeling like total crap, I write them down. I write them down, hit publish and it’s like breathing a sigh of relief and like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I don’t expect or even ask anyone to read these posts but if they do great. If they want to comment then even better.
Something I have noticed about a lot of the comments on my “Synpathy Seeking Posts” is that a lot of the time, people are either going through or have been through the same thing and rather than piles of sympathy are actually offering advice and comfort. Is there something wrong with that? I read blogs all the time – people suffering from PND, broken marriages, abuse, conception problems, death and all sorts… are they all just pity parties looking for all the sympathy they can get too?! No, they aren’t. They are people who wanted to share either for their own need to release their feelings or in the hopes that by sharing their experience someone else may not have to suffer what they themselves have been through. Do you know what?? I call that bloody brave, not attention seeking.
So let me just clear a few things up… I don’t write my posts for sympathy and even if I did – who cares?! It is my blog and I will write whatever the hell I god damn want to. In case you haven’t notice there are some happy posts too! Secondly, if my blog is so boring well then STOP READING IT! I mean I completely appreciate the fact you are adding to my stats and page views but trust me I can live without you visiting my blog on a daily basis and just as a hint… you know those emails you get letting you know there is a new post on my blog? Well, at the bottom of that email is a little button called UNSUBSCRIBE, so feel free to hit it any time.