We remember the most random of moments in our lives don’t we? I can remember being in nursery school and playing Mary in the Nativity. I can remember in middle school standing on a stage and forgetting my words in the play and saying someone else’s lines instead. I remember the look in that guys eyes when he first said he loved me. I remember every detail about my first cuddle with my daughter and… I remember the day I virtually met the person this blog post is all about and for. I want her to know, in this time when she is questioning what to do, where to go and if she should carry on, that whatever happens, her and her friendship matter to me…
I have made no secret of my history with friends. Like everything else in my life I have shared it with every single one of you… more specifically what happened between me and my now ex-best friend in “Bullying & Betrayal: What the Hell Happened to Friendship?!” After this and the breakdown of my relationship, I have to say that I ran back home to my family shut the door and was happy to hide away. I cut myself off from everyone and everything and didn’t honestly want to socialise with anyone except my mum and the rest of my family. Now I admit that that is no way to live but at the time it was what I needed to do.
Then I found myself thrown into the blogging world (I threw myself in head first) and I was determined that despite the social nature of my now job, that I wouldn’t get attached to anyone or anything… I mean what’s the point because people only hurt you in the end right? Well, that didn’t last long as the wonderful people in this strange land wore me down and I found myself reaching out and eventually craving a friendship of my own however virtual that may be. I had seen all the “blogging royalty” talking about finding their tribe and their besties and I thought where was mine? Of course, me being me, popped it all down into a blog post “Personal Ad: Blogger Seeks Tribe!” and here 6 months later I find myself with my very own tribe of over 60 members with even more followers than that…. but it was you that responded to me first. It was you who left me a message, telling me that I was not alone and that you felt the same and that maybe, only if I wanted to, I would like to chat sometime…and we did. In fact, we have’t really stopped have we?
Since those first few tentative messages when we really didn’t know what we were saying to each other to late nights giggling and chatting… sharing highs and lows, insecurities and wisdom, I never ever thought I would have a close friend again and despite the fact we have never managed to meet in person and thanks to our busy lives sometimes go days without talking it doesn’t matter, because whenever we hear that ping of a message we are both there. Well my lovely, this post is one big massive BING to let you know that I am here.
I know that you are lost right now and are not sure which way to go… should you just pack it all in and give up because thanks to some crummy stats chart (that FYI I think is bloody wrong) you are not making an impact? Should you stop wasting time that you often don’t feel like you have? Honestly? I cannot make that decision for you and whatever you decide I will be behind you like I have in everything for the past six months, but before you make that decision I just wanted you to know that you matter. You matter to me, Your blog matters to me. It was one of the first blogs I connected to and found myself wanting to read. It was the first blog that gave me a post that made me cry. I could write a list a mile long telling you all the reasons I love your blog and what you do but I am pretty sure you would tell me to STFU so I shall stop rambling on…
I can imagine that you are sat there not knowing which way to go and I am hoping that this is simply a lapse in confidence and that maybe this post will help you get your blogging mojo back – because when you have it, you write like magic. However, you don’t need to believe or listen to me…just look, read and listen to all the comments left on your blog. Look at all the subscribers and followers you have – yes as you pointed out, 90% of them may be other bloggers but did you remember that those bloggers are also mummies, daddies, parents just like you who when taking off their blogger hat welcome the opportunity to read a post that you have written that may just help them in some way and like my post back in February did for you and make them realise they are not alone?
Have hope and faith my friend, you and your blog are so much more than you give yourself credit for and I, along with the thousands (yes I said thousands and NO that was not a typo) of followers and readers you have truly believe in what you do. However, if you do decide the end has come I will still be here answering every bing just as I know that you will.
Whatever decision you make my friend I will support you but before you go anywhere, I just wanted you to know that you may think you have had no impact but that is not true. You and your blog which shares your life have had such an impact on mine and for that I cannot thank you enough. So I just wanted to let you know that actually… You Matter to Me!
Have you met friends online that have made a difference to you?