I find it hard to believe that on the morning this will publish, my little girl will be turning 3. I seem to have blinked and she is suddenly no longer the tiny 5lb baby that would curl into a ball and sit on top of my chest and remain there for hours on end. She’s now the long limbed child that climbs all over me and who’s length now takes up half of mine. She’s no longer the tiny baby who lay quietly, with big eyes, learning about the world. She’s not the little girl diving head first in to see what the world has to offer. I’d like to say she’s no longer the tiny baby who keeps me up at night and that she’s the little girl who sleeps all through the night… but we’re still working on that, aren’t we madam?! So Alyssa, this is for you on the day you turn 3…
My darling baby girl, you have no idea how much you have changed my life. I wanted you before I even knew you existed and felt like I waited my entire life to meet you. I’m going to be honest – this isn’t how I’d hoped you would arrive in the world but I wouldn’t change it for the world and strive each day to be enough and what you deserve.
Sweetheart, your arrival was the biggest surprise of my entire life. Growing you and feeling you move around inside my tummy was one of my most treasured moments. Right from the start, it was me and you kid and whilst we have lots of friends and family taking this walk of life with us, yours is the hand I hold onto so tightly.
I always wanted children and just before you arrived, for some reason I had resigned myself to the fact that it would probably never happen. Then two blue lines told me otherwise. I was worried I wouldn’t be able to do it alone and there have been times when it has been really tough but one cheeky smile from you has meant that everything is okay.
This last year has seen some huge changes for us – we’ve moved house, you have gone from a cot to a big girl bed, you’ve started nursery, we’ve both made friends AND you kicked potty training’s ass. I am so very proud of you and to be your mummy. You make each day the most amazing adventure and I am looking forward to so many more years of them together.
This might be a completely soppy and mushy post, but hey at least I am not popping up any embarrassing photos of you right?! There is absolutely no point to this post other than I just wanted to get it down and tell you what an incredibly special little girl you are. You are loved by so many and bring so much joy into the hearts of everyone who knows and meets you.
Don’t get me wrong – you definitely have your moments!! Only you can push me right to my very limits and within a split second pull me back by telling me that you love me or that I’m your best friend – you’re such a little madam sometimes but I keep reminding myself I am raising a strong, independent woman that I am sure not only I will be proud of but everyone else too.
When you started talking about your birthday months ago, I asked you what you would like and you simply said “I’d like a pink cake, some balloons and a bike please!” Well, my darling when you wake up, there will be balloons flying high, a bike gleaming with a giant bow and a pink cake to enjoy once the unwrapping has been done.
Happy 3rd Birthday my Beautiful Alyssa!
Lots of love