Am I a Sell Out Already??

Time. I seem to be having a serious issue with time recently. The past month has seen Alyssa ill and get better, the weather change and people wanting to do more and an influx of lovely people asking me to review their products on my blog. Don’t get me wrong, I am truly touched by  the offers and ones that I feel are appropriate to my blog I say yes to.

However, once you say yes to the reviews and receive the products, obviously you need to get the post written and out there (unless of course you’re a con-artist… which I am not!) Now, with the time constraints I have been under recently, my main focus was to ensure that I did not let the brands down and got their reviews out within a reasonable amount of time and that I took as much care over them as I normally would. I have had to type a bit faster but I am proud to say they are out and I have even managed to host a few giveaways for them too… but this is where my smile ends.

After finally getting Alyssa back to being healthy and several weeks of skimming by on time and sleep, I had the opportunity to sit down and really look at my blog and I have to say that I was horrified… Where had I gone? My blog started out a few months ago with nothing but me oozing out of every seam and crack but when I stopped and looked at it, all I could see was a sell-out. A blog that looked completely materialistic and looked as though it had been neglected and left to fend for itself… I wanted to cry. What had I done? Was I really a sell-out already? Surely not!! I wasn’t really making any money and it had only been a couple of weeks… had I really abandoned blog?

Of course I hadn’t abandoned my blog, otherwise I wouldn’t have been posting at all. It’s just that life had taken over and forced me to step back. However, it got me wondering… in times when I have no choice but to let my life take over, would no posts be better than constant materialistic posts that have no connection to me whatsoever? Would radio silence really be better than posting articles about some lovely products I was privileged enough to try out? Hmmm, I’m not sure on the answer to this. All I know is that when time finally arrived at my door again, I had a huge desire to write “me” again. In fact I even said out loud, to no one in particular “I haven’t written a “me” post in forever!!” Of course it isn’t forever it just feels that way and what even is a “me” post?

 Well, I suppose a “me” post is something I feel passionate about or that has touched me in some way. So much so that I feel compelled to word vomit all over a page and somehow or another this forms into a post that ends up on this little corner of the internet that is mine. Others have described what I’d consider my “me” posts as honest, to the point, comedic and definitely NOT sugar coated – I take all of these as huge compliments and I mean why should I sugar coat anything when life isn’t sugar coated in the slightest.

So, after only 5 months of blogging am I really a sell-out to review blogging already?

I think if you had looked exclusively at my blog over the past few weeks, you may well have thought that. However, although I have had little time to write about things that truly matter to me, I have still be able to interact with people on my various social media platforms and engage and comment in a way that I think prevents me from ever becoming a sell-out. Don’t get me wrong, it is wonderful to receive products to review and like everything is good to do in moderation.

I am not going to lie, this blog comes from origins which weren’t always so honest – this blog was born from a want to eventually make money and be able to work from home. However, within the blink of an eye it had become so much more and sad as it may seem, I now consider it one of my closest friends.

I appreciate that my blog is so honest with me and shows me when I need to stop, take a breath and re-evaluate where I am going and what goals I have in my sights. So in answer to my original question… NO, I am not a sell-out and nor will I ever be. Yes, it would be wonderful if this blog and writing became my full-time job as well as my passion, but if it doesn’t that is also fine because it will remain a love and a passion of mine that I now could not be without. Thank you blog… I needed this “me” post!

Do you have “me” posts? Are you concerned about becoming a sell-out?