Well, some of us may be in the same boat and some of us may be blessed with uber immune system children meaning they rarely get ill and during the summer and slightly warmer times this is definitely my little girl and I. Unfortunately, she seems to have inherited mummy’s winter immune system and is susceptible to constant flus and viruses no matter how much vitamin C, iron, fresh air, wrapped up warmness I give her and you know what? That’s okay, because people handle different things in different ways. However, I can’t help feeling a little bit judged.
Over on Instagram I post daily about what Alyssa and I are up to and how we are feeling and what we are doing with our day and so obviously if Alyssa is ill or something then I include that as well. Now, I appreciate that I may be reading too much into this and that this could be merely the ramblings of an anxious mother who occasionally suffers from bouts of mummy guilt, but on the most recent posts I put where Alyssa had a temperature etc. I had people sending their love, hugs, well wishes and then a few who commented “Wow – ill again?!” Yes, I get that she is ill again and yes it is like the millionth time this winter but what exactly am I meant to be doing that prevents her from getting ill that I am not already doing?! It’s hardly like I’m sat there force feeding germs down her in order to make her ill once again the following week?! No, I’m not doing this, it just so happens that my little bean is one of those babies who gets poorly during the Winter – and that’s okay.
I understand that by sharing my life so openly on social media, that I leave myself open to comments, ridicule, opinions etc and generally and on the whole I try not to let them get to me. However, this silly little off the cuff remark really got to me and I think it’s because it makes me stop and think whether there is in fact any more I could do to stop my little one from being ill. Am I making her ill?! No, of course I am not but that doesn’t stop us as parents feeling any less guilt about the fact that our little ones are poorly. It is a horrible feeling when your baby is lying poorly in your arms and you can’t fix it straight away and make everything better and even worse when they can’t tell you exactly what is wrong.