I have been wanting to part take in Katie’s series for, well since it began some many many weeks ago. The truth however is that for a long time I haven’t been able to come up with a legitimate reason as to why I am a blogging success. Now that is not a woe betide me kind of statement and I am not saying my blog is not ‘successful’ as success is ultimately subjective – I just did not know what a blogging success meant to me.
After stewing on it for quite some time I thought back to my seemingly compulsory birthday blog post. This post really touches on why my blog is a success to me, so I have no shame in using some of the text from that post.
I started to increase the time spent on my early 2016 and in hindsight I don’t think this was a coincidence. It was a difficult time in my life, I had my second baby in 11 months, who was premature, still poorly and a one year old. I was elbow deep in sleepless nights, nappies, feeds, reflux, consultant appointments, toddler/baby gate, I had a house to keep in some kind of order and a partner working all hours, on piss poor sleep to provide. I put myself at the very back of a long queue, that is motherhood, especially that of two very young babies. I am not complaining for I know, just as I did then, that it was a phase to get through but looking back it was a dark phase at times.
During this time my blog gave me more than a space to offload, moan or celebrate the good. It gave me some wonderful friends, people to talk to in the middle of the night when our kids wouldn’t sleep, people to keep me company on those lonely parenting days and people to guide me through the blogging world. It also gave me something I wasn’t expecting, something I hadn’t had for a while, it gave me a purpose – a purpose that was for me and didn’t involve tending to someone else. That’s not to say my babies were not purpose enough, far from it, believe me when I say – they are my everything. It is just that gave me something to do that was mine and for me alone. It gave me a space to get lost in, it gave me a mental and personal challenge but most importantly it brought me back to life at time that was becoming increasingly dark and difficult. Blogging gave me, me.
Now, that I have made the difficult decision not to return to work and stay at home with my babies blogging provides me with an adult space that I can pour my thoughts and brainwaves into and it gives me something that I miss from the working world. It also gives me the potential for a future.
Essentially, to me, I am a blogging success or rather my blog is a success because over the last 15 months it has, at times, kept me going and I have kept it going. It has grown considerably and I am incredibly proud of all that I have achieved – technology really isn’t my thing. I know it all sounds a little deep for ‘just a blog’ but it’s true. I believe I am a person who needs something other than being a SAHM (no that is not a criticism of those who don’t, just a personal preference), I thought that ‘other’ would be work. However as, for us, this was not possible. I have successfully created, nurtured and now provide my own ‘other’. That is my success.
If you, like me, want to read more from Sarah then why not pop over to her blog or give her a follow on social media…